Forever & A Day

I'm am going to have a confession session with myself because I can't continue to lie about my feelings.

Confession 1: I'm not superly in need of a relationship, but surely I am aware it is on my list of wants. I want a relationship. I want to be loved. Homones stepping along the way? Maybe it's just me? I don't know. All I know is that when I come home, I should be looking forward to HP6. Wow. My first official one-on-one date with him. I haven't seen him for one year. Who am I to fool that I'm ridiculously in like with him?

Confession 2: It's been playing on my mind over and over again and again. Since HP always had some suspenseful parts within the movie, it gives me the opportunity to cuddle with him? Cheesy? I know. But don't you agree that's the perfect moment?

Confession 3: I regret not wanting to go to Vietnam. This was the perfect chance for a break from stressing all year long. I admit, sophomore year was the best so far ;D

Confession 4: Mood swings. I've been taking it out on certain people. I'm so mean.

Confession 5: I feel really left out. I feel like I've been MIA in CA. Everyone is having a killer summer while I'm stuck in another country, haha.

Confession 6: I'm actually liking the way I look now. I love the hair and anti-acne skin. I'm super thankful for that. Thank you God!

Confession 7: I don't want to come home. I have to put up with a new school year, school work, sports, clubs, family, and friends. Now that I'm over here, it doesn't seem so impressive as it used to sound.

Well, I don't know what else to confess except for the ones above. I can't wait to upload the limited pictures I took here, haha. Oh yeah. Another confession- I haven't taken much pictures ever since we've been here. It's okay. Lol. Until then, I'll see you when I get back. Peace!

A Memorable Summer

The distinction in between the two lives I live here in Vietnam and my life at home are somewhat similar, yet different in many ways. Since coming to Vietnam, I had realized how I love my mother more and more everyday. But I'll get to that later. I'm coming home in a week! How crazy is that? But there is a part of me that will always want to stay here longer.

The Positives:

-I have learn to love my family even more and that this vacation was something everyone dreaded to attend, but concluded as a positive therapy from the work we had suffered for years!

-I have grown closer to my cousins here because I would usually associate with the aunts that are proximate to my age. But after the deaths that had happened last year, things aren't quite as happy.. or the same.

-I got makeovers! Yeah, I know that's not really me, but for the first time in my life, I actually feel pretty. I love the compliments on my teeth, hair, nails, clothes, etc. I'm actually satisfied with myself that tomorrow, I'm going to have a photoshoot. I can't wait to see those pictures!

-I've learned that sitting at home doing nothing is just self pity in this town. I love how my great aunts and uncles yell at me for staying in the house all the time. Can you believe it? At home, my grandmother and mother yells at me for going out too much. But here is the total opposite! I love it!

-Being treated as a princess here is simply beautiful. Everybody waits by me and asks me if I want to eat or if I'm hungry etc. constantly. They take me out a lot. I have random shopping sprees, bingo nights [gambling style], and well, anything I ask for, I got it. My daddy knows how much I love to sing, so he bought me a karaoke machine. How amazing is that? Even though I know I can't sing whatsoever, my mother encourages me to sing even louder and with more passion.

Too lazy to continue. I'll rant on when I get back home ;D

Allergies

Today my aunt took my mother, grandmother, and I to a mini spa. My grandmother got a special massage while the rest of us got a head wash and massage. My massage was hella awesome. It made me melt! She massaged my temples and washed my hair like no other. It was to die for! However, the day was a mess. For the body massage, they sliced the cucumbers thin horozontally and put on some lotion on them too. If you know me well, I am allergic to scented face wash or lotion. Guess where they placed the cucumbers? On my face. I didn't fell the itchyness AFTER they took it off. When they took it off, it was disatrous. My face was like a swollen strawberry; bumpy, red, hot, and irritated. It even made my left eye swell up. It was terribly painful, intense, itchy, and dreadful. Everyone at the spa was staring at me when I left the building. My vision was blurry from my swollen eye, so I couldn't walk home. My aunt drove me home first and Mama told me to take two pills of Benedryl to stop it from swelling up anymore. She told me not to scratch because it'll take longer to heal and that it'll make it worse. Man, I couldn't even stand up right. After I took the pills, I took a nap for about 20 minutes and it was gone. My left eye is still partially swollen, but that's better than staying as a strawberry. Well, I'm kinda missing him today. Stupid Meebo and Aim Express won't work on me, so I couldn't talk to him. I left him a comment on Facebook saying that we should go watch Harry Potter when I come back home. Hopefully things will go well. Until next time, see yuhh!

I ♥ Crazier by Taylor Swift!! :D

Possibly, Maybe.

Zln460W: did u get wut i said??
Amandax0ii: my bad
Amandax0ii: sorry
Amandax0ii: type it again?
Zln460W: i saw anh at work the other day and it was awkward lol
Amandax0ii: oh lol
Amandax0ii: did you talk to him?
Zln460W: yep a lil.. just said hi lol
Amandax0ii: did he say anything?
Amandax0ii: man
Amandax0ii: that's so weird!
Zln460W: hi back lol
Amandax0ii: that's
Amandax0ii: it?
Zln460W: yup i was working... wut do u expect lol
Amandax0ii: OH
Amandax0ii: he went to h.d.?
Zln460W: lol duhhh yup
Amandax0ii: oh
Amandax0ii: i thought you went for a haircut or something
Amandax0ii: damn
Amandax0ii: hella awkward
Zln460W: haha that reminds me i need a haircut...
Zln460W: i love my iphone...
Amandax0ii: you do
Amandax0ii: your hair is too long
Amandax0ii: i want an itouch
Zln460W: how do u even know?? u haven't seen me in forever.. lol
Amandax0ii: pictures? haha
Zln460W: i haven't taken any pics lately lol
Amandax0ii: with janine?
Amandax0ii: that's all i've seen so far
Zln460W: oh that was hella long time ago lol
Amandax0ii: lol
Amandax0ii: same thing
Amandax0ii: just go get a haircut
Amandax0ii: haha
Zln460W: haha loser i had a haircut after those picsss
Amandax0ii: oh
Amandax0ii: get a new one!
Amandax0ii: you need one!
Zln460W: lol i will laterr ima go sleep got work in about 6 hours lolx.x
Amandax0ii: aww
Amandax0ii: have fun
Amandax0ii: sweet dreams and don't let the bed bugs bite (:
Amandax0ii: stay warm!
Zln460W: lol good afternoon to u! thnx and go out and have some fun!!! dont stay on the comp all the time gosh lol
Amandax0ii: lol
Amandax0ii: there's nothing to do
Amandax0ii: it's raining
Amandax0ii: haha
Amandax0ii: i love rain
Zln460W: lol w/eee byeee
Amandax0ii: night
Amandax0ii: lovesss you
Zln460W: lol love ya too
Amandax0ii: lol go to sleep!
Amandax0ii: byeee

Well, this was the convo AFTER my comp froze. The convo we had before this was quite.. interesting. Possibly, just MAYBE, he's slowly liking me again? Possibly, MAYBE, I'm missing him? I don't know anymore. Before this convo, we talked about my hair [which is now RED! Yeah, I got red highlights!] and him wanting to get his ear pierced. I was like, "What side are you piercing?! DON'T TURN GAY ON ME!" and then he responded, "You don't want me to turn gay because then you'll never get a chance with me ;D" HA. PUHLEASE! So I replied, "It's okay, then you can come shopping with me and all that!" Haha, it was funny. Suddenly he said, "I miss talking to you.... when are you coming back?" I didn't want to make it so awkward so I acted like it was a friendly and all. I didn't say 'I miss you, too' but I sorta do. I told him that I'm coming back on August 2 or 3 and I told him that when I get back, we should go out. I don't understand why, but he asked, "Is that a date?" It was bolded. I told him that it depended on him. He didn't reply. So now, I'm thinking.. Does he like me? I also asked about Khanh, his lover/crush thing. LOL. He said that she wasn't worth talking about so Idk. He also told me that he ran into Anh the other day. It was weird. Oh wait. That's in the convo. HAHA. FAIL. EPIC FAIL. Anyways, I'm gonna go to sleep now! Talk to you laters! See yuhh!

PS- When I come back, I'm going to talk in FOB for a while. AND I LIKE IT!

PSS- I also need to play more tennis.

PSSS- I MISS JOVEY! :'[