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jambamflimflam is available 12:02 am
soul in every breath I take 9m ago
amandax0ii 12:02 am
(12:02:24 AM): DUDE

Me: OMG DID YOU READ IT?!

Jam: mhm, still reading.
Jam: man.. i did not expect this

(12:02:55 AM): but it's really

(12:02:57 AM): heart warming.

jambamflimflam 12:04 am

(12:04:40 AM): words cannot express

(12:04:49 AM): how many emotions have just rushed through my mind
amandax0ii 12:04 am
(12:04:55 AM): that crazy?
jambamflimflam 12:05 am
(12:05:03 AM): it was like

(12:05:04 AM): a ride

(12:05:13 AM): back through the three years her and I have known eachother
amandax0ii 12:05 am
(12:05:15 AM): doesn't it give you like.. good chills? idk. even i felt it. LOL

(12:05:17 AM): sorry
jambamflimflam 12:05 am
(12:05:19 AM): yeah!
amandax0ii 12:05 am
(12:05:20 AM): continue
jambamflimflam 12:05 am
(12:05:29 AM): no no! ahah no need to apologize
amandax0ii 12:06 am
(12:06:17 AM): i got chu

(12:06:19 AM): talk to me!
jambamflimflam 12:07 am
(12:07:55 AM): man

(12:07:56 AM): i really

(12:07:58 AM): don't know what to say

(12:08:00 AM): LOL

(12:08:14 AM): i got the biggest

(12:08:19 AM): heartwarming feeling

(12:08:25 AM): from the start to finish
amandax0ii 12:13 am
(12:13:18 AM): that's good

(12:13:20 AM): it made me

(12:13:24 AM): reminisce too

(12:13:24 AM): LOL

(12:13:28 AM): WHY DID THIS TOUCH ME

(12:13:30 AM): LOL
jambamflimflam 12:13 am
(12:13:37 AM): HAHAHA

(12:13:40 AM): man

(12:13:46 AM): i have so much

(12:13:49 AM): gratitude towards this
amandax0ii 12:14 am
(12:14:02 AM): are you

(12:14:09 AM): gonna talk to her about it?
jambamflimflam 12:14 am
(12:14:21 AM): most definately

(12:14:24 AM): she's said what she has to say

(12:14:34 AM): and I need to return the favor

(12:14:56 AM): i really am thankful though, this was the point in time where I just kept trying to find love

(12:15:00 AM): but she's helping me realize

(12:15:04 AM): i don't need that right now

(12:15:18 AM): friendship REALLY does go a long way

(12:15:35 AM): it's like an eye opening thing

(12:16:04 AM): I guess you could say i got lost.
amandax0ii 12:27 am
(12:27:22 AM): geezus

(12:27:26 AM): rollercoaster
jambamflimflam 12:32 am
(12:32:05 AM): mhmm

(12:32:09 AM): OH

(12:32:11 AM): and

(12:32:13 AM): knock knock

(12:32:37 AM): okay nevermind i probably sound weird right now

(12:32:40 AM): HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY

(12:32:42 AM): (=
amandax0ii 12:35 am
(12:35:31 AM): LOL

(12:35:31 AM): LOL

(12:35:34 AM): omg

(12:35:36 AM): i'm sorry

(12:35:42 AM): my aunt called me from hawaii
jambamflimflam 12:35 am
(12:35:48 AM): HAHA
amandax0ii 12:35 am
(12:35:48 AM): thanks, buddy

(12:35:49 AM): :]
jambamflimflam 12:35 am
(12:35:49 AM): itsall good!
(12:35:56 AM): k

(12:35:57 AM): let me

(12:35:58 AM): reread

(12:36:02 AM): what you wrote

(12:36:02 AM): LOL
jambamflimflam 12:36 am
(12:36:04 AM): HAHA

(12:36:06 AM): mmkay!

(12:36:07 AM): but yeah

(12:36:15 AM): i responded to Jovey's blog

(12:36:28 AM): but I hope she'll get to read it, since she's real busy with all her stuff

(12:36:31 AM): it might've been too late
amandax0ii 12:36 am
(12:36:33 AM): this is a great present omg

(12:36:34 AM): LOL

(12:36:37 AM): idk.

(12:36:39 AM): i like no

(12:36:41 AM): it*

(12:36:46 AM): /no creepiness
jambamflimflam 12:36 am
(12:36:49 AM): HAHA
amandax0ii 12:37 am
(12:37:28 AM): ..

(12:37:29 AM): LOL

(12:37:32 AM): you all love me
jambamflimflam 12:38 am
(12:38:34 AM): dude

(12:38:36 AM): of course
amandax0ii 12:38 am
(12:38:43 AM): OMG

(12:38:46 AM): DID HE JUST...

(12:38:49 AM): WALK BY ME

(12:38:50 AM): OMFG
jambamflimflam 12:38 am
(12:38:54 AM): LOL
amandax0ii 12:38 am
(12:38:54 AM): HE'S LIKe

(12:38:56 AM): SO HOT

(12:38:58 AM): OMGGGGG
jambamflimflam 12:38 am
(12:38:59 AM): HELLAHELLA HOT

(12:39:00 AM): OMGOMGOMG
amandax0ii 12:39 am
(12:39:08 AM): i knew you loved checking out boys.

(12:39:11 AM): we should do it

(12:39:13 AM): sometime.

(12:39:15 AM): budddddddy.

(12:39:16 AM): LOL
jambamflimflam 12:39 am
(12:39:19 AM): aye girl

(12:39:24 AM): i fly straight

(12:39:29 AM): ain't no curves round hurrrr
amandax0ii 12:39 am
(12:39:30 AM): with some
jambamflimflam 12:39 am
(12:39:32 AM): nawmtalkinbowww
amandax0ii 12:39 am
(12:39:33 AM): bumps

(12:39:35 AM): LOL
jambamflimflam 12:39 am
(12:39:37 AM): GIRLS ALL THE WAY
amandax0ii 12:39 am
(12:39:38 AM): LOL

(12:39:39 AM): HAHAHA

(12:39:41 AM): omg
jambamflimflam 12:39 am
(12:39:42 AM): HAHAH

(12:39:43 AM): that

(12:39:44 AM): sounded

(12:39:46 AM): kinda gay

(12:39:47 AM): actually

(12:39:47 AM): LOL
amandax0ii 12:39 am
(12:39:48 AM): you're speshal

(12:39:50 AM): ..

(12:39:52 AM): kinda?

(12:39:53 AM): LOL
jambamflimflam 12:40 am
(12:40:16 AM): aahah

(12:40:16 AM): man

(12:40:18 AM): to be honest

(12:40:20 AM): i felt really shitty

(12:40:21 AM): the whole day

(12:40:25 AM): and my spirit

(12:40:30 AM): has been feeling really

(12:40:31 AM): wornout

(12:40:40 AM): not to sound cliche though

(12:40:41 AM): LOL

(12:41:05 AM): jovey did in one blog post what i've been trying to do for the past months
amandax0ii 12:43 am
(12:43:32 AM): but never had the time to do, right?

(12:43:37 AM): dude

(12:43:47 AM): i wrote so many for my ex

(12:43:51 AM): but then i just gave up

(12:43:52 AM): haha
amandax0ii 1:00 am
(1:00:41 AM): geebus

(1:00:45 AM): are you still awake?
jambamflimflam 1:01 am
(1:01:06 AM): did he ever read them? :O

(1:01:07 AM): sorry bout that

(1:01:12 AM): i got something to eat

(1:01:16 AM): :D
amandax0ii 1:01 am
(1:01:25 AM): it's okay

(1:01:27 AM): and who?
jambamflimflam 1:02 am
(1:02:32 AM): your exes and stuff?
amandax0ii 1:02 am
(1:02:37 AM): oh

(1:02:37 AM): no

(1:02:45 AM): deleted me off of everything

(1:02:48 AM): /)___-

I hate what a relationship can do to me.

I still need to work on the 'I don't care' ethic.

I don't hate the school.

I seriously don't. I'm just really frustrated at a lot of my peers for being inconsiderate and rude. I really dislike the way how people just throw me a small portion of their project to me and expect me to make it look like an A+ type of project. Seriously, it would be a lot better if you helped me out with my PowerPoint rather than expecting me to bullshit beautifully. I need to talk to Curran about how he's going to grade us tomorrow. I'm going to tell him how that my stupid neighbor did not contribute at all to the project and that my other partner barely contributed at all. I'm seriously furious. I hate how they don't take this seriously and I'm the only one who actually cares about my grade. I don't want to settle for a stupid B. I want an A. I know I can get an A and I don't want stupid lazy people to drag it down. Chemistry is just being too much of a handful. At this point, I'm just gonna cover the main points of every chapter and study from that. I'm not going to even deal with the minor factors. I know I'm going to fail, but Maestas favors me. I don't even really care anymore. APUSH.. I swear, they all annoy me. Every one of them. One thinks she's the shit because she is part of this and part of that. She has all the hardest classes and BLAH BLAH BLAH. Dude, just because I know you can do well, doesn't mean you can gloat about it on the daily. I know you're stressed out and whatnot, but stop looking at me to comfort you when you're being treated like shit. I'm not the one who will say, "oh, you poor baby! here! let me compliment you until you feel better!" Dude, we all have our struggles. Hop off our nutz. K, now it's your turn. You love to listen to everything and gossip about everything. You love to be in drama and you love seeing people mad. Seriously? You're fucked up. Leave everyone alone and worry about your life. You're a typical Chinese chick. And last, it's you. You're so fucking lazy now, I swear! OMG! You don't help do shit at all. You just love being a bitch to me and when I don't tolerate it, you get all up on it. You ask the most obvious questions that aren't even worth mentioning. It's just common sense and I wish you'd just seriously grow up and stop acting like you know everything. I hope I don't have any classes with you next year. I hate how you automatically choose me to be your partner for group projects. Piano is whatever. I don't care anymore. English.. I have to write 5 stories in one day and the rough drafts are due Thursday. In other words, I'm fucked. Precal.. I do care about my grade. I just hate his teaching criteria. I hate that class.

I'm so ready to break down tonight. I feel like just shooting everyone and calling it a day. I wish people would be a little more considerate and just help out one another so that we all wouldn't have to kill each other. Fuck. I really REALLY dislike a lot of my peers that it's kinda a little too close to hate.

I Miss You.

I had a dream about you again last night. It's the second time that you've entered my dreams.. it's making me hesitant to cross paths with you again. I miss you. A lot. I'm not over you and I don't think that I'll ever be. I don't know what I'd do if I ever saw you again. I have a feeling that it'll happen. Maybe not now, maybe not soon, but I think it's gonna happen. In my dreams, I avoided you for as long as I could. I was trying to avoid the awkward tension the second we would lay eyes upon each other. I'm sick of missing you. I'm sick of the wondering, dreams, and nostalgia. I just wish you'd just come back to me so that all this bullshit can just stop. I just want you back. I wish I could just rewind time back when you were just mine. Sigh.. And after all the shit I went through, I still think of you. Fuckkkkkkkk.

-A.Ly

Luck Fove.